Going through yet another mood swing.
Questioning EVERYTHING.
I assume LD is just pretending that he has some sort of hidden agenda...life is just one big joke played on me I’m gonna wake up one day and all my friends and family are gonna be standing at the foot of my bed pointing and laughing “ha ha you thought we really cared”
why do I do this to him?? Why do I do this to myself??
Why cant I just realize that no relationship is perfect? That it’s ok if I piss him off sometimes, that he’s not gonna jump up and leave if I’m not the perfect girlfriend...I cant be the perfect girlfriend
all I can do is the best I can in life. I’m doing the best I can to fix myself and I cant be happy all the time (even medicated) and I cant expect him to be.
If I cant do anything else for LD at least I’ve made him feel loved totally for who he is...and isnt that what everyone wants?
Posted by tylergirl2
at 7:35 PM CST
